Not getting it right
Some days I am exactly 0% sure of what I am doing as a parent. Some days I am 100% sure that I am failing at this massive undertaking of raising another person.
These past few weeks have been challenging. I can’t quite feel like I am getting things right. I feel like I am not doing enough. I feel like I am not enough. I feel like I am failing him. I am trying to encourage him at school, but that doesn’t seem to be working. I am trying to motivate him to study. That’s not going as great as I’d like either. I am creating schedules and trying to develop routines that I believe will be helpful … and nothing. I don’t know why nothing seems to be sticking. And I don’t know what to do to help him.
I found some amount of comfort in a story another mom told me. She said my son reminder her of her own. You see, he was brilliant in school. He got scholarships to high school, but his grades there weren’t reflective of his capabilities. He buckled down and got scholarships to university but finished years after he should have. He took courses he didn’t need and other things like that happened resulting in his delayed graduation. After graduation, he had several unopened books under his bed.
He used the degree he earned to fuel his actual passion. Over time, he actually found the thing that appealed to him. He found that thing that motivated him. He is now a success in…
